A Room of My Own: Every Poem an Epitaph

a solo somonka in response to Albert Camus's remark:
There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide.
--  An Absurd Reasoning

published poet,
a shaman or just a shame ...
unemployed
I crawl into a hole
and wait for the last breath

destroy, destroy, ...
hums my unconscious --
the God of Job
refuses to hear the hum
while killing my ten poems